Back in London

Hi everybody,
I just got back to London this evening, and I am here to stay... at least for the time being. It has been just over a week since I got back from El Salvador, but it feels like weeks! I received an evaluation in my email inbox for the trip, and I thought that now would be a good time to share my journal entries. I am still not sure what my "conclusions" for the trip are for now, but I am hoping that by going through my journal as I write them onto the blog, I will be able to reflect on my thoughts and experiences.
Before I start, I want to share some of the ideas that are going on in my head.
1) I love one of the principles that a pastor on the trip shared: don't just look at someone and tell them Jesus loves them; build them a house and THEN tell them Jesus loves them! ... without looking at this statement as a 'paternal viewpoint' (and I can assure you that the man who said this is a big supporter of building self-sustained livelihoods), I think it really captures what it means to share the gospel.
2) I have been feeling frustrated, guilty, and confused by my lack of frustration, guilt, and confusion, regarding the disparity that exists between God's children. WHY wasn't I more touched... why wasn't I overwhelmed with compassion.... why am I so "OK" with coming back to all of the luxuries that I have here in Canada??
3) I didn't get the same quiet time each morning to spend with God while I was in El Salvador, that I had in South Africa. Now that I am back in Canada, I know that took a big toll on my inner- peace. I thought that once I got back, everything would go back to the way it was while I was in Africa, but despite having more time, I still haven't resolved my feelings of uneasiness.
4) I think that it is so important to connect with the people that live in the places that you travel to. Some of the people on the trip spoke fluent spanish, which made translations easy, but made direct conversation impossible. I would like to learn Spanish in the future! I saw how the people who could speak Spanish interacted with the locals, and I would really like to be a part of that exchange in the future.
OK, I am going to start entering my journals... since God isn't limited to the present, even though I will be finished writing the entries when you read this, please pray that I will understand what God is saying to me as I read through them :)